holding on

so i am learning all sorts of new life lessons right now.  some good, some not so good, all of them necessary.  i have been doing a lot of soul searching lately and praying, well yelling and crying at God…which i guess is still praying…and found that in the quiet God just is and right now that is enough.  right now i need God to just be.  i dont need Him to move a mountain or write in fire, i need Him to just be God and never changing. 

i know that God is moving because in my head i knnow that He is always moving, but my heart is having a hard time trusting anything right now.  i am scared for the people in my life who are either far away from God, need God to come and find them or who dont know God at all and i heard this song on the way to work the other day and for me its everything i know that God is trying to tell them…

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)