i dont know about you, but i often wonder why people continue to hang out with me.  i mean, i am neurotic and loud and i am pretty sure that is not always a good thing. 

am i the only one who gets done with hanging out with people and replays the conversation only to find that i am pretty sure i could have done it better? 

why do i do that?  why do i think that because of something i said or did will make my friend not my friend anymore?  why do i not trust relationships and friendships in my life? 

yeah, i am not sure…but i am working on it…